It’s a tough ride Denyse - and I’m not trying to focus on the negatives by saying that - rather, by acknowledging the tough times may it shine a light on the ongoing grace we need to gift ourselves 😘💜
It sure is...and after writing and publishing this post, things went ....a little bit off the gratitude track!
I had the 2 days of the weekend as big reminders of what they meant to me 8 years ago...and then.."bam" I.B.S. returned to let me know we are not quite as happy as we thought.
So, today has been one of remembering the trauma and deciding to do some more to help me through that. I have not fully processed a lot of it..and there are reasons why but time has come.
I'm having another session with the psychologist I thought I said good by to, spoke to my prosthodontist today who understands what is happening and will see him when I am ready ...and yes, admitting to more than I have let on I think, even to me.
And you dear Sandra, as someone who 'gets' this..more than anyone, for me to share this update with, I am GRATEFUL for your presence!! Denyse x
7 years is a lot of time, and it can also feel like yesterday - depending on how our emotions and thoughts are directing us at any given time. I think you're doing a lot of processing of feelings that you didn't deal with back then Denyse. I truly hope you'll be able to work through all this and finally put it to rest. Every morning when you see your smile in the mirror, you know you beat it and the hard work was worth it. You have so much joy ahead of you that is a direct byproduct of all that you went through to be healthy and whole again. Go you!
What a kind, generous and caring comment for me Leanne.
I do feel like I am 'coming through a lot' and my body is telling me when I need to rest (and I am, mostly, listening).
No doubt about it writing is helpful and healing as we both know and I am also allowing the feelings to come and go...these days.
I see it all as a part of me now, not separate times or conditions and it's how I view it that is changing. It was hard but I got through it, and now I acknowledge both what this cancer 'gave me and took away'.
You've been here for that ride of my life and I appreciate your presence very much.
It’s a tough ride Denyse - and I’m not trying to focus on the negatives by saying that - rather, by acknowledging the tough times may it shine a light on the ongoing grace we need to gift ourselves 😘💜
It sure is...and after writing and publishing this post, things went ....a little bit off the gratitude track!
I had the 2 days of the weekend as big reminders of what they meant to me 8 years ago...and then.."bam" I.B.S. returned to let me know we are not quite as happy as we thought.
So, today has been one of remembering the trauma and deciding to do some more to help me through that. I have not fully processed a lot of it..and there are reasons why but time has come.
I'm having another session with the psychologist I thought I said good by to, spoke to my prosthodontist today who understands what is happening and will see him when I am ready ...and yes, admitting to more than I have let on I think, even to me.
And you dear Sandra, as someone who 'gets' this..more than anyone, for me to share this update with, I am GRATEFUL for your presence!! Denyse x
Your awareness of self and what you need to do for yourself to ‘get through’ is always inspiring to me Denyse. 😘💜
Oh lovely S, I needed to read that! Thank you! Xx
7 years is a lot of time, and it can also feel like yesterday - depending on how our emotions and thoughts are directing us at any given time. I think you're doing a lot of processing of feelings that you didn't deal with back then Denyse. I truly hope you'll be able to work through all this and finally put it to rest. Every morning when you see your smile in the mirror, you know you beat it and the hard work was worth it. You have so much joy ahead of you that is a direct byproduct of all that you went through to be healthy and whole again. Go you!
What a kind, generous and caring comment for me Leanne.
I do feel like I am 'coming through a lot' and my body is telling me when I need to rest (and I am, mostly, listening).
No doubt about it writing is helpful and healing as we both know and I am also allowing the feelings to come and go...these days.
I see it all as a part of me now, not separate times or conditions and it's how I view it that is changing. It was hard but I got through it, and now I acknowledge both what this cancer 'gave me and took away'.
You've been here for that ride of my life and I appreciate your presence very much.
Thank you
Denyse x